when something is being watched and measured the act of watching and checking often has an effect on the thing being watched. in physics this is called the observer effect.
if one wants to see the true nature of things it is best to put some distance between yourself and the thing you wish to observe.
this is one way to get closer to finding out the truth.
it is easy to take for granted the silent ways with which we communicate with each other.
occasionally you may get the opportunity to move perspective, a slight change in focus and these cues become as bold as the first time your ever came across them.
these are pictures from a day when a very important promise was broken.
the thing that i beat myself up over is that i knew that i knew that the promise was little more than words and yet i took big risks with my life hoping it was more than that.
i am putting this here to remind myself to once again trust my instincts about people, to listen to my own heart when what i am being told does not seem true.
please forgive me for being so indirect.
i am perhaps a little unsure, so unsure that i can’t even be direct about that.
i haven’t been sure about anything for a long time, changing conditions, mixed signals, unfulfilled promise.
i have shrunk to accept these as facts of life at least for me, at least for now.
there is something about the way we engage that has my head full of questions.
is it that you want to save me?